"I keep asking that the God of our Lord Jesus Christ, the glorious Father, may give you the Spirit of wisdom and revelation, so that you may know him better. I pray also that the eyes of your heart may be enlightened in order that you may know the hope to which he has called you, the riches of his glorious inheritance in the saints, and his incomparably great power for us who believe." Eph. 1:17-19
I ran across these verses recently and have been thinking about them ever since. In fact, I started praying these for myself because I'm seeing a real need for "wisdom and revelation" to know the Lord better.
Seems like every so often in this journey with God, I run into a brick wall. The wall is something I'm believing about God. It's not usually something I'm even aware of until circumstances throw it painfully in my face. Then there's no getting through until I face it, heart to heart with God.
It's not easy to honestly say things like, "You know what, Lord? The fact of the matter is I don't trust You with my kids because You didn't take good care of me when I was a little girl. So I'm afraid You won't take care of them. And even though You're asking me to trust You and surrender them to You, I'm really scared to do that and I don't want to."
Times like these are when I need that "Spirit of wisdom and revelation" and for the eyes of my heart to be enlightened. The amazing thing is that when I face that brick wall and ask for truth and a deeper understanding of Him, it's like God opens a gate for me to pass through. My questions don't always get answered, but I see Him. I see Him like I haven't seen Him before and that makes all the difference.
So here we are again, facing another wall. And I wait.