I've begun writing down desires.
For me, letting myself want something has been a stretch. My habit of years was simply to accept my lot in life and not dream for more.
But our lavish God was not content to let me live in my gray world.
Many times in the gospels, people came to Jesus for help and He would first ask them, "What do you want?" Being God, He already knew. Yet He wanted to hear them say it.
As He began to ask me, "What do you want?" I found it hard to respond. There is something about answering His question that makes you own what your heart truly longs for in vulnerable honesty.
But when I allowed myself to desire and to tell the Lord these secret hopes, He began to give me what I asked. Even more than what I asked. And each time He does that, I am undone. I don't know what to do with this grace. He cares about my heart, and I am trusting deeper.
"The LORD is gracious and righteous; our God is full of compassion. The LORD protects the simplehearted; when I was in great need, he saved me.
Be at rest once more, O my soul, for the LORD has been good to you." Psalm 116:5-7