Wednesday, September 16, 2009

Even though

I wrote this on Sunday morning sitting in church:

09/13/09
"Even though my car is broken and stuck at Walmart parking lot
Even though I have no money to fix it or tow it
Even though I have $1 to my name and that is one I borrowed from my daughter
Even though I have no way of getting the financial resources I need to meet the needs I have this day
Even though my husband wants a divorce and has abandoned me
Even though he no longer helps me or provides for our kids
Even though I have no idea of what I'm going to do and am completely at a loss

Yet

I will rejoice in the Lord and thank Him
I will trust in His holy Name
I will seek His face and put all my hope in His goodness and lovingkindness
I will look in His eyes and trust in His love for me
I will remind myself of His promises
And will have confidence in His Word
He has said that He will supply all my needs.

I put my trust in You, Lord.
You are my God, my Father, my Savior, my Helper, my Provider, my Strength, my Hope, my Beloved.
My heart belongs to You."


Three days later, I sit here with my car in the driveway completely fixed, a kitchen full of groceries, money in the bank and a heart overflowing with gratitude and thanksgiving. Through the kindness and generosity of my small group at church and even through my estranged husband, God has supplied my needs.

"I trust in your unfailing love; my heart rejoices in your salvation. I will sing to the LORD, for he has been good to me." Psalm 13:5,6

7 comments:

Melissa G. said...

Oh Angela, this brought tears to my eyes. I'm so sorry you are going through so much!
I'm so glad to hear that God has come through for you and provided for your needs. He is so good!

Baby Mama said...

Wow. I cannot even imagine what you were going through and am awed by your amazing display of faith. and our Lord is so faithful to take care of every last need. i know He will restore your marriage as well. i am thanking and rejoicing for you right now!

Becky Aguirre said...

It is so hard to be needy! And yet if we never get to that point, we miss seeing how powerful our God is and how He can provide when things seem impossible...so glad you are being so blessed!

Anne L.B. said...

When a man’s ways please the LORD, He makes even his enemies to be at peace with him. (Proverbs 16:7)

Daveda said...

Angela, my heart goes out to you. It is times like these when He carries us. He is forever faithful.

Kristen said...

this is beautiful. He will always come through as long as you put your faith and trust in Him!

Angela said...

Thank you all for your kind and encouraging words! I am discovering the blessings of weakness and lack -- that my need is a guarantee of God's supply.

With God, life is always an adventure!