Friday, September 11, 2009

Holding on

Two years ago, I wrote this post on another blog. It was a very dark time in my life.

September, 2007

"Frodo: I can’t do this, Sam.

Sam: I know. It’s all wrong. By rights we shouldn’t even be here. But we are.

It’s like in the great stories, Mr. Frodo. The ones that really mattered. Full of darkness and danger they were. And sometimes you didn’t want to know the end. Because how could the end be happy? How could the world go back to the way it was when so much bad had happened.

But in the end, it’s only a passing thing, this shadow. Even darkness must pass. A new day will come. And when the sun shines it will shine out the clearer.

Those were the stories that stayed with you. That meant something. Even if you were too small to understand why. But I think, Mr. Frodo, I do understand. I know now. Folk in those stories had lots of chances of turning back only they didn’t. They kept going. Because they were holding on to something.

Frodo: What are we holding on to, Sam?

Sam: That there’s some good in this world, Mr. Frodo. And it’s worth fighting for."
(Lord of the Rings, J.R.R.Tolkien)

There is very little left from what was before. My life seems almost unrecognizable. I have no idea what to look forward to. The shadow still lies heavy over it all and there is no glimmer of sunlight anywhere to be seen. But on the inside, there is light and hope. So in the strength of that, I continue on today. There is some good left in this world. There is much good in those around me. It's worth waiting for. It's worth fighting for.

September, 2009

Two long years
and so much has changed. Yet some things remain the same. I am still walking through this forest, but it's no longer dark and terrifying. Light has come in with His sweet Presence and warmed the cold places of my heart.

There is much uncertainty. But the Lord is with me and I trust Him. I cannot see ahead, just the step in front of me. But we walk it together, He and I, holding hands, laughing.

Joy has swallowed up sorrow and grief. Peace has overcome fear. Love has conquered hate.

I keep holding on.


"We wait in hope for the LORD;
He is our help and our shield.
In him our hearts rejoice,
for we trust in hi
s holy name.
May your unfailing love rest upon us, O LORD,
even as we put our hope in you."
Psalm 33:20-22



(Photo courtesy of www.forestwander.com)

8 comments:

Karen Lana said...

Beautiful! Just like you my friend!

Baby Mama said...

"There is much uncertainty. But the Lord is with me and I trust Him. I cannot see ahead, just the step in front of me. But we walk it together, He and I, holding hands, laughing.

Joy has swallowed up sorrow and grief. Peace has overcome fear. Love has conquered hate."

Absolutely beautiful. I long for this feeling.

Monica @Know-Love-Obey God said...

It's good to look back like this---to see what He's done since, and to consider what He might do from here...

...Mrs. Southern Bride... said...

Sweet testimony!!

Anne L.B. said...

I've come back to this post three times now, just staring at those photos and not knowing what to say.

I love the beauty in both pictures. I'm glad you selected a photo of darkness bathed in the moonlight. I think of Jesus as the sun and us as the moon. Where He shines there is no darkness. We face Him to reflect His light into the darkness.

Thinking of sun and moon is how I reconcile one verse in which Jesus declares He is the Light of the world, and another verse where He tells us we are the light of the world.

Beauty in your words matches the photos.

Becky Aguirre said...

Beautiful pictures, beautiful words!

Jennifer @ Getting Down With Jesus said...

Beautiful pictures -- both the visual pictures and the word-pictures you've created.

Praying that you continue to walk in the Light -- and that His Word may be a lamp unto your feet, and a light unto your path.

Angela said...

Thank you all for your sweet comments. You're all so very encouraging!

May the Lord show you the goodness of His heart today.

Love,
Angela