Thursday, March 24, 2011

Being the Beloved

"I forgot who I was, and found me in God, who seems to be quite literally giving me my desires back – maybe not to fulfill them, but to let me know I am still capable of desiring, instead of living in the cautious netherworld I chose to be safe." - Kelly@{A Restless Heart}

"I kept running around in large or small circles, always looking for someone or something able to convince me of my Belovedness.
Self-rejection is the greatest enemy of the spiritual life because it contradicts the sacred voice that calls us the "Beloved". Being the Beloved expresses the core truth of our existence."- Henri Nouwen

"As the Father has loved me, so I have loved you. Now remain in my love" 
- Jesus, John 15: 9

I'm not sure how this all fits together.  Just some words I've been pondering lately and asking God about.  

I'm beginning to see that living fully alive means not putting up barriers between me and God.  It's risky to stand in open-hearted vulnerability and receive His love.  To let Him show me my "Beloved-ness". 

I think it's easier to go seeking love and acceptance somewhere else, because then I can feel like I've earned it.  Or at least control it in some way.  

But not with God.  There is no taming His wild heart.  And I'm glad -- even if it scares me too.

What would it look like to own my heart's desires, to trust Him, to receive His affection and live in the reality that I am His Beloved?


OliveTree said...

I like your beloved quotes. Have you read Henri Nouwen's "Life of the Beloved" lately? I hope I'm getting the book title right. I love Nouwen's treatment of the quote "You are my beloved son, with you I am well pleased." I've meditated on this a lot for myself and use if often to encourage others. I find people thirsty to hear this from God.


Beverlydru said...

Cherished. Loved extravagantly. Oh yes. I have an idea percolating...I'll pray on it and see how it tastes as it sits. : ) Your blog is beautiful.